Jesus te ama.

Speaking volumes. Monumental. Love. Compassion. Desires of my Heart.


All of these things were rushing through my mind after we did our first 'local outreach.' The purpose was to make a video..a live sculpture if you will, of finding our identity in Jesus and not in things such as jobs, what you wear, where you came from...but to live in identity with Jesus and without there is no life. My 'role' was--"I find identity in things that I have" Ex: Bling, money, clothes..etc..

     As we stood there for about 20 minutes, the entire time I was just asking for confidence from the Holy Spirit to the people that were around us. To stand in front of a crowd, not speaking any words, was a definite challenge. Not speaking at all has taught me that I need to be ready and equipped with the Spanish language the next time we have outreach. To always have my bible and to be prepared to speak to strangers about the love of God.
     But as the Holy Spirit was in me and around me I began to feel at ease in the streets of San Jose. I felt God's protection and most importantly, he was strengthening me through my weakness and insecurity. After we gathered around and a few people felt the need to talk to some of them, but I just went off by myself to really just debrief on what was going on inside my mind and my heart; and then it happened....
     Looking to my left was the sweetest little boy I have ever seen. He was playing with the tiles on the ground and was not paying any attention to me whatsoever, so I just watched at a distance. Then El, began to play with him and I joined. I felt trapped because I wanted to say so much to this little boy, but the language barrier was keeping me from doing so...so I did what I could to engage him...so I started dancing, guess you couldn't of guessed that..hahaha...Soon I was shaking my wrists because I had all these bracelets on and I knew he would like the sound. As he came up to point at it he noticed the 'play money' I was holding and grabbed it from me. "AHA!" I thought to myself; I am so confident in my counting in espanol that this would be a breeze! We started counting and then another little girl came up, such a pretty little thing, so full of energy and confidence...She then started counting with us and we started talking in spanish. I asked her name, how old she was, where she came from--the spanish was so just pouring out of me ever so easily!
     We started counting and she said "One"--"Habla Ingles?!" I asked her and she responded "Un poco"..So we started counting in English. It just so happens that I was wearing a huge heart silver necklace and the boy came over and pointed at it, "Mi corazon", I told him; just then I noticed that the back of the sign had the words "Jesus te ama"-----We had some light bulb action going on at this very moment!
     "El corazone de Jesus es muy, muy, MUY GRANDE para usted," I told them, first in spanish and then the girl  repeated it in English........AH Yes, my first ministry to the Costa Rican Kiddos--my heart was fulfilled at that very moment. I can not express the happiness that this little girl and boy gave me. Oh yeah, and did I mention the little boy was special needs? :) :)

"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart"

-Psalm 37:4

Thank you Jesus for giving me my desires of my heart.